When I picked up your clothes from the store and
Sent out your sister’s birthday presents and
Made the cards for every occasion and
Found the best school for dyslexia and
Drove to the pharmacy for the pills and
Photoshopped everything you needed and
Reserved the best table on Sundays and
Preserved it all in photos and email
With custom place settings and traditions
our own yogurt parfaits and pollock paint
and voices we make and walks to take
and meditations to breathe and pews to pray.
I believed.
Everything was make believe. I believed.
We were a family and I believed.
You said I did not make it all up in
My head like a fool;
it was real and when
I thought it was ending you said:
I believe.