Seeking oblivion
Sometimes I'm seeking oblivionTo evaporateAnd forgetAnd be forgotten
You, who are not digested by the putrid decaying of organic life. Or a relationship. The life cycle is orderly to you who follow it roundinstead of controlling it, holding on to it,keeping it alive. Let it die. And be composted into new life. Let it go and be its next nature. Instead of preserved in a…
I’m stafford The place you hold on to when you are lost and can’t decide which way to go. You tie yourself when the wind is strong. You are buffeted by the storm and taking on water. A protected cove. It’s stronger than the wind. To hold you safe, so you can decide. And when…
They didn't know the wisdom of the past. Couldn't see the promise of the future. Never felt the fuzzy beard.Or learned to hold the rod and cast.They didn't know love's rootin unconditional eternal grasp.They thought that love is maternalAnd not the kind that's maskedIn concern for risk and safetyAnd found in rules that last.The entire…
I cannot reinhabitThe soul that was mineEven when I look at photographsAnd try to rememberwho I used to be.The kind of SeptemberWhen it all came crashing down.
This sack of meat which carries my soul should not be trusted with it it betrays my desire offends my aesthetic and isnt worthy of the task.
I wish that I could fill the hole in youAnd make you whole.The cleft of my heart every time you leave meGrows stronger tissue with each scarScars caused by neglectInattentionWillful desire for another womanAnother lifeYour first wifeYour second lifeAs you look back,You break my forward-facing heartBut I cherish itWhen it builds my resistance With constant insistence That…
And then you drove byAnd you left meHolding the gateMaking me wait And you believed you were on your ownBut you were handicapped By love unrequited And left me alone
Speaking is easier than being a speaker Leading is easier than being a leader Fighting is easier than being a fighter Writing is easier than being a writer Teaching is easier than being a teacher Preaching is easier than being a preacher Loving is easier than being a lover Mothering is easier than being a…